Six Months Left

I have tended to ignore this blog while in the middle of tasks, or feeling stuck. I only really turn to it when I feel a milestone has arrived, whether in terms of time passed or task achieved. As the title of this tells you, this time is no different…

In 6 months I reach the end of my PhD funding, and so in my mind I reach the end of my PhD.

The natural question for others to ask me seems to be “what will you do afterwards?”, and I will write a blogpost in answer to that at some point, but for now I’ll leave that topic at: “it’s sorted, but it feels so far away right now I can’t concentrate on that yet”. 

I have almost reached the end of my second science chapter, out of three. And by almost, I mean that I consider it basically done, but I’ll email it to two people early next week and I’m confident they will have constructive suggestions to make it better. How much more work I will need to do as a result of those suggestions is something I will find out, but for now I can move on and start approaching my final science chapter.

The first project took me 21 months. The second (until now) has taken 9 months. And so 6 months left to start and finish and 3rd project feels alternately doable and scary. Plus to finish writing an introduction, of which maybe 60-70% is written at the moment, and a conclusion too… I’ll stop thinking about that now đŸ™‚

Ignoring that is actually what’s worked for me so far this year (2016). I have a general sense that I need to work quickly, efficiently and with as little procrastination as possible, but I haven’t caught myself worrying about the big picture so much. Focussing on what I can do right now, the progress I can make right now and then allowing myself time off to recharge without guilt seems to be an effective method.

I suppose I’ll find out in 6 months if this plan has worked đŸ˜‰


History of the PhD

In most of my blogposts I have ended up talking about how I’m feeling through the PhD process, and any techniques I have tried to decrease stress and increase happiness. I have found that writing these, and reading similar blogs from other PhD students, has helped me with the non-academic side of research.

For the same reason I recently joined a free MOOC (massive open online course) on EdX, called “How to survive your PhD”, and it’s given me a few things to think about. Week 1 was about introducing yourself, week 2 was about the history of the doctoral process, and then weeks 3-10 are each focussed on a different emotion that can be part of taking a PhD.

The main point I’ve taken from week 2 is one particular connection between history and the present:

We learnt that the historical culture of scholars and academics being entirely and completely focussed on reading, learning and publishing research came from a time when they literally had everything else done for them. In general, they lived in college, had cleaners, cooks, maids and so never needed to do chores. This meant they could devote every waking moment of their time and brain power to research, and were therefore incredibly well read.

The Research Leader for this MOOC then compared this to modern day researchers; we all have our own responsibilities outside of research itself, whether that’s regular household chores, travel time between home and work, or family responsibilities, let alone wanting any time just to relax! “I’ve not read enough”, “I’ve not done enough”, and “I just don’t know enough” are common worries of PhD students; it’s no wonder that when thinking about how much the ideal academic would be working, we all seem to feel we fall short. 

In my opinion the image of a “real” or “ideal” academic is the part that needs to change, not the modern lifestyle around it. PhDs have to develop to fit into researchers’ lives now, which are profoundly different from researchers’ lives when PhDs began. Doing a PhD is no longer only for those who will be lifelong academics, with nothing else of importance to think about. Some of us PhD students will go to industry research, become businessmen/women, or politicians, or teachers, or whatever else it is we want to do. Some of us will stay in academia for our entire career, but that is no longer the norm.

The PhD, and the culture around it, must adapt to that.

NOTE: A recording of the Periscope “livechat” from week 2 is on YouTube, here. The part especially relevant to this post starts at 5:14 and lasts about 2 minutes (it’s ~30 mins long in total, and worth a watch in entirety if you have time).

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Nearing the end of Year 2…

I feel like my posts here have become significantly more infrequent over the last year, compared to during the first year of my PhD. I went back and briefly counted, and it’s not as drastic a difference as I expected; I posted 12 blogs during my first year, and have done 8 so far this year. This just goes to show that how I feel something is going is not always the most accurate measure of reality.

I think learning how to separate my immediate perception of my progress from the reality of my progress is the most important lesson I’ve learnt in my PhD so far. I have spent a lot of the last 12 months being frustrated with ‘not moving fast enough’, ‘not doing well enough’, and generally struggling with the idea that I “should” be at least a stage further forward than I am. Every time I speak to another PhD student about their work they seem to express the same idea, which hints at the fact that this is something we are all dealing with! Continue reading

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Small victories?

Sometimes a victory that feels huge can suddenly sound obvious when you try to explain it. For me, the key is to remember how important it is to you.

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Telescopes, snow and so much food! (Asiago #1)

Group photo of NEON Observing School 2015 participants

Group photo of NEON Observing School 2015 participants

I don’t think I ever want to eat pasta again…

I’ve recently come home from the NEON Observing School in Asiago Observatory, Italy. This was a 10 day course designed to give Astro PhD students a chance to experience and learn about observing and data reduction, with a combination of lectures and group work. We also ate more food than I thought was possible; three course meals for lunch and dinner every day is not something I’m used to! Continue reading

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Back to work

I haven’t written anything on this blog for a few months. I would like to say that’s because I’ve been intensely busy with all kinds of work and life related things, which is kind of true. But mostly I haven’t had the motivation to write because I try to focus on my PhD work and that has been very frustrating recently.

In my last post I wrote about the relief of passing my “upgrade” panel, so I am now a fully registered PhD student (instead of officially an MPhil student). That was back in November last year. Immediately after that I finished off and sent out a draft paper to collaborators, just in time to get some feedback before Christmas.

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Why is a PhD like a ‘rubber duck’?

A 3-D reconstruction of the Rosetta comet (67P/Churyumov-Gerasimenko) in a 2003 model from the Hubble Space Telescope. Credit: NASA, ESA and Philippe Lamy (Laboratoire d’Astronomie Spatiale)

A 3-D reconstruction of the Rosetta comet (67P/Churyumov-Gerasimenko) in a 2003 model from the Hubble Space Telescope. Credit: NASA, ESA and Philippe Lamy (Laboratoire d’Astronomie Spatiale)

On the left is an image reconstruction of our ‘best guess’ at what comet 67P/Churyumov-Gerasimenko looked like in 2003. This was created using images from the Hubble Space Telescope in preparation for ESA’s Rosetta Spacecraft mission to travel there and take a closer look.

This closer look happened more than 10 years later, and just last week the Philae Lander was released and performed the very first soft landing ever on a comet. But even before this landing, we knew a lot more about comet 67P than we had in 2003. Images from Rosetta as it approached and began orbiting the comet showed us a completely unexpected shape, shown on the right, leading it to be nicknamed the ‘rubber duck’ comet.

The soft landing (or more strictly, bouncing) of Philae has been all over the news for the last week or so, but it was this article in Universe Today that drew my attention to the huge increase in knowledge about 67P over the last decade. We can easily get caught up in particular events and achievements but it isn’t often that we really sit back and appreciate how far we’ve come over a longer period of time. Continue reading

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Up(grade)s and Downs

While usually I try to focus these blogs on positive aspects of PhD life, today I want to focus on how I felt driving home after a mediocre day.

Yesterday was not a good day. Nothing particularly bad happened, but work didn’t go very well and by the time I left the office I was frustrated.

I ranted about it whilst driving home; about 45 minutes of “Why doesn’t it work?”, “Why can’t I write faster?”, “Why don’t I understand it all yet?”, “Why is science so *frustrating*?” etc etc

The frustration I’m feeling is down to the stress of meeting deadlines, not the work itself.

The main cause of my current work-related stress is the fast approaching upgrade process. Continue reading

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New Job! STFC Astronomer

Life has been a little busy recently. The biggest news is that I now have a part time job at the Royal Observatory Greenwich (ROG)!

My new badge, for the role of STFC Astronomer at Royal Observatory Greenwich

My new badge, for the role of STFC Astronomer at Royal Observatory Greenwich

My role is called “STFC Astronomer”, and I will be presenting Study Day “Masterclasses” to secondary school groups, and planetarium shows to both school groups and the public at the ROG. This is to do alongside my PhD, so it is for one (short) day a week, either 5 hours or 3.5 hours long, depending on the programme for that day, and only during term-time.

I have done one induction/training day and one normal day so far, and it’s been great. I know a little about how the organisation works because I volunteered there for two summers during my undergraduate degree, so it’s been lovely to see the astronomy team again, meet the new members and learn about where I will fit into the department. I have also been able to see how much I have grown as a science communicator since then; my time at the National Space Centre allowed me to develop my own style as a presenter, both in classrooms and planetariums, and I am pleased to be able to continue doing this alongside my PhD research.

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Cloudy in Belfast?

Participants at the Cloudy Summer School 2014 (QUB). Photo credit: Paul Woods

Participants at the Cloudy Summer School 2014 (QUB). Left to right, Nicole Reindl, Anne Fox, Patricia Bessiere, Larissa Takeda, Catherine McEvoy, Kingsley Gale-Sides, Megan Whewell, Tek Prasad Adhikari, Helen Meskhidze, Mattia Bulla, Catia Silva, Matt Nicholl, Andri Prozesky, Ted of School, Gary Ferland, Janet Chen, Tommy Nelson, Jake Turner, Richard Tunnard, Brianna Smart, Tom Finzell, Ting-Wen Lan, Joe Polshaw Photo credit: Paul Woods

In August (18th-22nd) I attended a Summer School at Queen’s University Belfast. The week was based around learning how to use a computer programme called Cloudy, which is an atomic physics code that simulates the spectrum you should expect to observe from many astrophysical objects and scenarios. Continue reading

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